Life Starts Now

One from the archives ****

So we got our results.

They were all normal.

Nearly 11 months of hell and we can now finally start to look forward.

Esmé doesn’t have an auto repair condition after all. This is a huge relief. The thought of watching my baby deteriorate and age prematurely was just too much to bear.

I remember sitting feeding her on the sofa watching some crap like Dance Moms only for her to stop feeding to turn and watch the main dancer, Maddie Ziegler perform in a competition. My heart sank in that instant, not knowing if she would ever get such opportunities or be here long enough to find out.

Enough wallowing.

The genetics team will monitor her periodically to see how she is growing and developing but for now she is just perfect.

After getting the phone call on Wednesday, I have been doing some serious thinking.

At the risk of sounding like a walking cliché, what matters in my life from this day on?

Ive done some persistent bargaining with the big man upstairs in past months so I really feel like I have some thanksgiving to do. Surprising considering my beliefs are wobbly at best but I just have to think that someone is looking out for us.


There are things I had put off, unable to face with an uncertain future such as organising Esmé’s 1st birthday & christening. I want to celebrate her life now more than ever.

I’ve now sorted her a cake smash photoshoot too, hoping the cake isn’t too big that we can’t see her little face.

We also went to Holiday Getaway to pay our balance on our Disney holiday. We can all get excited about this now, I’m so happy to be able to take them both to such a magical place. (Disney I mean,as nice as Holiday Getaway is).


I’m going to increase my work hours a little too. I feel less guilty now knowing that our time together is in no way limited plus I’m lucky that she is well looked after at Little Acorns by ladies I know and trust. I couldn’t bear to let her do more that the minimum before now.

I’m going to make myself happy too.

Life is too short to just trundle along existing.

I feel like I’ve been blessed or at least for some reason granted the best outcome for our situation and if I can’t at the very least walk away from it with some perspective and appreciation then what was it all for? Why else were we put through it?

I’m not going to say I’ll never take my baby for granted again….this is real life….but when times feel trying and I’m losing my patience with her I will try to think back to the little baby watching the dancer with wide eyes and think how lucky I have been to get to see my daughter dancing through her own life, however little the pumps may be.

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23 Comments
  • Jayne
    Posted at 22:28h, 25 March Reply

    Can’t tell you how happy I am for you. Amazing news xxxx

  • Jayne Donoghue
    Posted at 22:29h, 25 March Reply

    This is the best one so far jode, although the uni one comes a close second 😉 xxx

  • This Mum Business
    Posted at 22:30h, 25 March Reply

    I agree!!! ???? xx

  • Rachel Murray
    Posted at 23:01h, 25 March Reply

    She’s so beautiful xxx ? love her Easter dress xxx

    • This Mum Business
      Posted at 23:18h, 25 March Reply

      Thank you Rachel!! Xx

  • Annette Mercer
    Posted at 23:52h, 25 March Reply

    ???

  • Cath Jones
    Posted at 08:51h, 26 March Reply

    Good for you Jodie – onwards and upwards from now on!?

  • Kirsty Fearick
    Posted at 09:29h, 26 March Reply

    So happy for you & your little bundle of joy xx

  • Rebecca Best
    Posted at 12:33h, 26 March Reply

    I agree this is the best one so far! Brought tears to my eyes! Enjoy a memory making Easter weekend! Xx

  • This Mum Business
    Posted at 12:38h, 26 March Reply

    Thanks so much! Enjoy your weekend everyone ❤️❤️❤️xxxx

  • Mags rodway
    Posted at 17:38h, 26 March Reply

    Just so bloody awesome !! That little face makes my life a lot richer every day I see it ???

  • Ciara Perry
    Posted at 17:40h, 26 March Reply

    That’s lovely news so pleased for you all xx

  • Janey Jane
    Posted at 19:00h, 26 March Reply

    Amazing news family Danner :))))))))

  • Megan Louise
    Posted at 21:48h, 26 March Reply

    Phew! Was feeling emotional but reading the two blogs have opened my heart and tear ducts! So honest and I’m sure any mums reading could empathise even if not had an experience like this. What an amazing woman you are, with amazing family and two beautiful girls xxxxx

  • This Mum Business
    Posted at 21:53h, 26 March Reply

    Thanks so much for reading Megan and for your kind words I really appreciate you taking the time xxxx

  • pinkpearbear
    Posted at 22:45h, 28 March Reply

    Wow, what a weight off. It sounds as though you have really really been through it in recent months. I’m thrilled for you that you got the results you were so desperate to hear and you can breath a little easier and resume normal life. Thanks for linking up with us! #bigpinklink

    • Jodie Danner
      Jodie Danner
      Posted at 22:47h, 28 March Reply

      Thanks so much, we’re delighted to have come through it the other side. Thanks for reading xxxxx

    • Jodie Danner
      Jodie Danner
      Posted at 18:59h, 30 March Reply

      Thanks so much for reading xxxx

  • Lady Nym
    Posted at 08:56h, 30 March Reply

    Oh, that’s great news. I’m so happy for you and your beautiful little girl.

    #bigpinklink

  • Something Crunchy Mummy
    Posted at 23:12h, 01 April Reply

    Amazing news! Thanks for linking up to #justanotherlinky xx

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