21 Oct Developing The Negatives of 2016
So a few months ago I wrote about how I was at a career crossroads.
I knew I didn’t want to work for someone else full time.
I knew that I didn’t want to enter into another venture with someone else unless I was 100% sure that it wouldn’t turn sour.
I knew that I wanted to work with children.
When I asked myself what I loved doing the most I realised that it was documenting my children’s milestones.
Unlike some (probably very wise) Mothers that didn’t allow their children’s images on social media, I posted multiple pictures a day. I couldn’t help it. I loved to capture their natural expressions and pictures that depicted their relationship.
When I was 15 I asked my Dad for a ‘proper camera’ for Christmas.
What I got was a second hand Chinon camera with a permanent fault that left a thick black line on the photos but I loved it.
It was a one way blag pass into the backstage area at school where I could snap pictures of the drummer that I had my eye on for a full 3 years. The agony of unrequited love.
The novelty wore off after school – developing pictures used to cost me a fortune and I never did manage to fix the camera’s fault.
The smart phone sparked the passion again as did motherhood and I have, like most mums, pictures of everything from the sublime to the ridiculous. The first smile to the ‘sitting on the potty on the iPad 18th birthday shamers’.
So that’s what I decided to do.
I’m going to take pictures.
I won’t call myself a photographer as ‘friends’ recently took a surprisingly bile filled boil of umbrage at my bare faced cheek of deciding, at 34, to change direction. I didn’t just buy an expensive camera and go…..’Look at me! I’m a profesh ‘tog’!’
I even had this lovely meme dedicated just to me! I feel so special!
I’m not expecting a fast pass to megabucks. I want to learn the craft. I want to learn from others through mentorship & experience.
I could go to college for 3 years and capture feeding blue tits on foliage & sunsets at dawn but you know what? I’m too old to be skirting around what I want to do.
I’ve had a Facebook page for a while but I’ve been too embarrassed to publish it until tonight.
I asked the opinion of fellow bloggers that are also photographers whether or not to just do it.
Several said that they didn’t get a degree or any formal qualification and that professional merely means providing a service & being paid for it.
Yes, I’m a novice that is having a go.
Yes, my prices reflect this.
No, I don’t just rely on an expensive camera. I’ve turned Esme’s nursery into a home studio using the tools I have to hand. I’m paying by the hour for training & mentoring.
Yes, I deleted said friend (after crying feeling terrible all day and ashamed at trying my hand at something I’m not ‘qualified’ at)
Yes, we’re a long time dead so why not try?
Yes, I’d LOVE for you to give my Facebook page a like HERE
I’m loving learning & I think that I have a real eye for getting the characters of the littlies that come into the studio to shine through.
Big hairy bollocks to the naysayers. (Middle finger emoji) This is me………..