02 Aug Feeling the Fear, Doing it Anyway (Whilst Pooing one’s Pants)
I’ve done something a little bit risky today.
I handed in my notice in my part time office job.
My bum is twitching big time but it’s time for me to strike out again in the business world before I become stale and embroiled in the rat race, a slave to my wage.
Working for someone else for a while really was the respite I needed after parting ways with Lavish and it confirmed a few things for me.
1)I love to work with people. Being in an office with lovely grown ups was great. There’s nothing quite like a bit of banter to pass an afternoon.
2) I’m not meant to work for someone else. I was far too naughty and checked my phone more times than it’s acceptable as an employee. I think i have developed bad habits and don’t like being told to keep it in my bag when i’m 34 even though it’s a reasonable request.
3)Time is a precious commodity. I’ve been unable to look at my own ideas due to working and then picking up the baby straight afterwards for an afternoon of accident prevention.
I needed this.
Time sat at a computer with my thinking cap on.
Life had become a vicious circle of work, being mum then a snatched half hour in the evening.
So here I am.
Just a girl, looking at a computer, willing it to work magic to get me to where I need to be.
I’m drawing a line under my experiences so far, bar the few very valuable lessons I have learned and I’m going to take the leap into the unknown.
I’ve figured out my passion.
It isn’t money.
Obviously it has to make money but it has to make me whole. Jewellery was never really my passion. I don’t really wear much of it these days except my wedding rings and fiddle beads.
Money cannot be the only thing that drives us to see our project through to fruition. Money can turn people ugly and ultimately break relationships & ruin lives.
I want to be proud of who I am and where i’m going in life again and to do so honestly and earnestly.
I’ve found my business lobster. Her passion isn’t money either. We are starting as equals.
Are we looking to scale the dizzy heights of commercial success? Not really. We just want to build the foundations of something unique, life changing and worthwhile. Not much to ask is it?
Life has a strange way of bringing you people that you need and that may just need you and I’m not sure how much longer we could have ignored it.
Whether I like it or not, being a mumpreneur seems to be IN me. For all the frustrations of it, nothing gives you the same satisfaction of seeing your business baby grow.
My confidence had taken a knock but it’s coming back. I know we have a brilliant idea and I LOVE what we stand for.
I tried to go back to life as a worker but it just isn’t me anymore.
Now, we have nothing to lose, everything to gain and an exciting journey ahead.