I’m a Modern Day John Coffey

“Mostly I’m tired of people being ugly to each other. I’m tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world everyday. There’s too much of it. It’s like pieces of glass in my head all the time. Can you understand?”

I really feel like this right now.

When we went to Disneyland Paris a couple of months back my enjoyment was tainted by fear.

Fear of being at the airport. Fear of being on the plane. Fear of being at a prime location for a high impact terrorist attack.

Fear for my babies.

Standing at the castle, emotional at the beauty of the fireworks but only too aware that we were stood with thousands of families and that an attack here would be devastating.


What the hell is wrong with people?

Only last night I read that there has been a scare at Disneyland.  Families fleeing the resort, children in arms, babies in prams.

Parents gripped with fear that they could have been at the heart of a tragedy.

We were planning to have another week away at the end of the month but I will resolutely stay put.

Terrorism has won.

I’m scared.

I’ve always insisted that you can’t live your life afraid because a life lived in fear is no life at all but my own words ring empty.

There is no humanity in monsters that co-ordinate these attacks.

I look at my children and wonder why anyone in the world would want to harm them and I dread a day when I won’t be here to protect them.

I hate to be so negative in a blog but right now I am gripped by fear of the ‘badness’ in the world and finding it hard to reconcile this. I did however like the following:


For all the horrors we have seen, this year in particular, they have only served to highlight the good in our society. The coming together of people in a terrible situation.

It’s just tragic that it sometimes takes an atrocity to notice.

NB – My next blog will be back to the usual joviality, husband criticisms and mum witticisms.

JD xx




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    Gemma-Eve Fairhurst
    Posted at 10:01h, 11 August Reply

    This is exactly how I feel right now xx

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      This Mum Business
      Posted at 10:01h, 11 August Reply

      We need to build a bunker 🙁 xx

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      Gemma-Eve Fairhurst
      Posted at 10:06h, 11 August Reply

      I know!! Bobbys dad tried to take him to Turkey earlier in the year and I had a melt down, I cried everyday last year when he went there just after the shootings in tunisa. He’s wanting to take him florida Disney next year and all I feel is dread should be like this. Can we move planets? I don’t like this one xx

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      This Mum Business
      Posted at 10:07h, 11 August Reply

      This is the awful thing though, they should get to see the world. It’s such a shame that we are so afraid all the time xxx

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      Gemma-Eve Fairhurst
      Posted at 10:08h, 11 August Reply

      ? xx

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    Janey Jane
    Posted at 10:57h, 11 August Reply

    You know me Jodie I’m the world worse worrier (especially with zach 24hr a day lol!!) but when it come to things like this I think it’s so impossible to predict things that I’ve just stopped worrying about it. Going to London soon for izzys birthday and we are gonna enjoy it :)))))

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    This Mum Business
    Posted at 12:14h, 11 August Reply

    Good for you Jane! I wish I could let go of the anxiety xxxxx

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    Joan Danner
    Posted at 14:55h, 28 March Reply

    Thankfully the majority of people are peaceful and law abiding. Good will always defeat evil xxx

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    Judith Marie Appleby
    Posted at 22:03h, 28 March Reply

    That is my fave book and film outstanding wrighting from Stephen king x

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    Susan Newbould
    Posted at 13:36h, 29 March Reply

    Soso true Jodie Danner its impossible not to be scared x

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